Life is For Remembering!

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I was little annoyed with a persons near to me who found it funny that I always have a story or known someone who had done something they are talking about.

Few days ago for example someone made a joke they were going to stay over night at work as they had nothing to go home for to which I said I once knew someone who did that once which they found amusing and made some derogatory remarks much to my annoyance.

Myself I found this behaviour immature as just because, even with quiet life, I have travelled more, met a wider range of people, had more experience of work places so in the end it is not surprising I have few stories and memories of people, places and events as I have lived over half Century so far!

It does highlight a worrying modern attitude of people who constantly put down those who dare to be different in effort to make them conform to modern society’s strict, unimaginative and uniform nature where no one should be different!

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Extreme Measures But Need to Be Done!

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I am coming to conclusion the United Kingdom, much like Australia, should have compulsory voting as it is time to force those people to take part in our Democracy as by not doing so they are damaging it more than ever the Conservatives ever will!

This may be an extreme view in some people’s minds but I am fed up of living in a country with a large majority of people who give lip service to our democracy but do not take part in it.

Democracy by definition means we all take part running the country not a few!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXLV

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Today is going to be a day of rest of an aching body and mind after 5 days what can be called hell all caused by those who really do not think through the effect they have on those around them. Sadly nothing new there and as frustrating to me as per usual.

It was one of those situations when the people involved should of stepped back and thought rather than react to a bad situation which made everything worse rather than better. There is only one real excuse is that it whole situation was a learning experience for all involved with the faint hope they learn from it.

In the end I survived it but it has left me very tired and worn down by a situation that should of never occurred in the first place. It gets to a point in my life if the job really worth the effort in the end as it is starting to effect my life in a very detrimental way especially with my mental health.

In the end not job really is worth the effort if it effect your health as you can always get another job but I only really have one life which is very precious indeed!

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The Illusion of the West!

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It has been few days of thinking about the world around me especially how the West does business and treats its people which has resulted in some very stark thoughts on my end.

I have concluded that we in the West really do not treat each other well especially those in positions of power who are very quick to abuse and take advantage of their positions to line their and their supporters pockets.

We live in a whole society based on the lies of Capitalism, Freedom even morals in which if we rock the boat we are quickly shut up they those people to scared to rock the boat. Strangely those in power need to do nothing as the fear they have generated via their lies make sure those who speak out are suppressed buy the very people they suppressed themselves.

And all you get from the people around you everyday is the world is all right, government is doing a good job especially from those evil terrorists in the Middle East. All this regardless of the fact the governments in the West are taking apart our social nets to save those who have fallen on hard times, reducing our freedom of speech in the name of security, reduce the quality of medical care for socially disadvantaged and so on.

And what do most of the people of the West do just sit there and take it too afraid to say anything in the vain attempt to get a good life of the rich which they will never get.

Yes, if you look under the thin crust of the Western Society underneath is a corrupt and dark society created solely created to serve a small group of parasites called the Super-Rich.

Our society is not all right even here in the United Kingdom and by turning a blind eye to it you are allowing it to continue and get worse!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXLIV

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It feels like the morning after a good day a bit of a let down but it also does not help it is a Monday morning with usual blues that comes with it as old habits die hard. Though today and tomorrow have a silver-lining as I am not working and it is rare nowadays I get two days off work in a row.

Yesterday was a good day in the end though the start could have been a bit better but I was stuck on the Tech Desk yet again at work something I really do not relish any more but the end of the day was so much better and a lot more successful than I expected.

I finally ran my first Role-Playing Game after 5 years of a break helped by the fact I have finally found a local Role-Playing group with reasonable number of players who are willing to try new and different Role-Playing games.

It all went better than I expected with all the Players enjoying themselves and getting into the spirit of the game which was a one off Traveller Scenario involving a Alien Hunt with a difference in so much the alien was a lot more powerful and technically killable, though they did find the way to kill it though they did not get a chance too.

The start of the game was a bit shaky as I was really nervous and rusty at the start but once I got into the flow of the game I remembered why I really liked running Role-Playing games as it is gives me lot of pleasure to see a story unfold especially when the players themselves create their own path through the story.

It was also gratifying the people of the group liked my more free form style of Game Mastering/Storytelling something I have always done for the last 5 years when I played and run Role-Playing Games. I tend to be someone who puts the story first rather than the rules and players before the scenario itself as I believe it makes a far more better game for the Players and myself.

So now I have finally proved to myself I can run a Role-Playing Game and I hope I have proved to the Players at the group I can run a Role-Playing game and I am not as I looked a lot of hot air. As always my depression makes things difficult inside my head as it can put real doubts in my head even if things have gone well.

So this is yet another step away from a life which had become very bland, frustrating and frankly boring. This year is still marching on towards better things for all of us here regardless of the distressing events around the world!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXLIII

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I have been quiet here lately as I have been busy finally outside of work finally building a social life though currently around Role-Playing Games but it is a start. It has started to do me some good as it now giving me a far more positive focus to my life away from the more negative aspects of my life which include work and everything associated with it.

It does also mean I have a real outlet for my imagination and creative sides of my character especially now I regularly Role-Play at a local gaming group though still early days still. Plus this weekend I will be running a Role-Playing for the first time in over 5 years something I am both looking forward to and nerves about. I know I can run the game but it is the fact I have to run the game for strangers which can aggravate my depression because of the anxiety it could create.

But either way this weekend is the first real step back to what I could call a normal life for me and step away from a life which has become dominated by work in the past decade. This was at the expense of my mental health and health in general so this subtle change in my life will result in an improvement in my mental health.

So over the next year I will start to play and run more Role-Playing Games and I have three ideas in the pipe line which should be very interesting role-playing game ideas to play and run. So there is a lot of work to get them up and running but they will stretch and exercise my imagination and creative side. There is a hope that they may inspire me to write more here and beyond as it inspires me to do new things.

Outside of this I am getting far more vocal about what is happening here in the United Kingdom to a point I am slowly going beyond the usual polite English ways of putting things to a far more direct way of putting things. After all I not stay quiet any longer about the abuse, injustice and corruption of the current Government and Establishment of the United Kingdom as I believe it is getting time for the people of the United Kingdom to stop sitting on the fence and take sides!

So this year for me is going to be year when I start to change my life, the way I think and how I live my life in so much nearer to how I want to actually live my life not as it been living my life as others expected me to live it.

It does feel like that I am finally starting to find myself to a point of discovering who I am for real!

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Growing Older But Moving Forward!

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After taking to various colleagues at work and observing some people on Facebook and other social networks what became very clear their attitudes where what be called old fashioned not what I would of expected different to those of my parents.

This in itself was worrying as I would of expected over the half decade of my life attitudes of the people around me to change to a point that I would feel as if the world had moved on leaving behind.

But I do not feel that way if anything it sounded far to familiar something I grew up with that is nothing has really changed in over 40 years. If anything it has been me who has changed and moved on to new opinions and attitudes which means I feel out of step with world around me not because the world moved on but I have moved on.

This is all wrong on so many levels!

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