Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXXXV

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A fun day ahead with ourselves taking our one dog, Kali, to the vets to get her nails clipped. It gets us out of the house even if outside is very damp as the weather has decided to turn for worse as outside is damp.

At least other than a quick trip to the shops we can hide inside the house and avoid the outside world so it can do it worse until tomorrow. It will mean I can catch up on chores and do a little more on my own version of 13th Age world map which I managed to start yesterday. It was nice to start to draw a map again even if it is my version of an existing map which I can modify to fit my needs which hopefully make running 13th Age easier.

What a wonderful life I lead in so much most of the time it seems so mundane to most people though not helped much of my hobbies tend to involve either sitting in front of a laptop or blank sheet of paper and a pen rather than being something physical everyone sees. Though hopefully people read or encounter the results of my work elsewhere even here in this journal.

So life keeps going on it meandering path though this year is still showing a great promise of change for the better for myself, partner and other people around me.

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Imagination: The Lost Land!

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Something recently said to me got me thinking about the way our society for decades has suppressed people imagination even our ability to dream. Regardless of what I have always said recently it is not a recent phenomenon but something which has been going on for decades certainly after the 1960s.

I have been luckier than most people as my childhood I was never stopped though not really encouraged to use my imagination or dream but outside of my childhood home I lived in a world which never really encouraged such behaviours if anything subtly suppressed it. Especially at school which tended to promote idea of a more bland life of work and so called normality. The result is always the same in so much most people’s imagination and dreams become unimportant replaced by a work ethic with no room for the real fun side of life.

This did colour most of my life in so much I knuckled down to work with little real enthusiasm for life in general. Though I managed to still exercise my imagination as I still managed to play and run role-playing games. In my case it was also suppressed by my underlying depression.

It is only now after I have done something about my depression and finally figured out the most important for keeping your mental health good is allowing your imagination and dreams free as in the end it is part of what makes us human in the first place. So now because I allow myself to be more creative and dream more I am starting to feel much better about myself and happier inside. This something which has not happened in decades.

But this is at a time when this insidious suppression of people’s imagination and dreaming has become worse, even institutionalised, in our society around us to a point they use peer pressure to keep people in line. We are forced into what someone else thinks is normal and acceptable that is someone who works hard, always follows orders and does nothing to rock the boat. That is a wonderfully compliment people easily controlled by te powers to be.

We are constantly fed this image of normality and compliance throughout our media even down to entertainment we are fed via our television. Add to this an encouragement from the powers to be for people to chastise anyone who shows an inkling of imagination, dreaming or even a uniqueness mostly by making the person in question feel so small and uncomfortable.

In the end we are creating a society which lacks a spark of life given by people who use their imagination or dreams to move it forward. We are producing a society which is doomed for failure because it will eventually stagnate on so many levels.

But as always people nowadays are blind to what is happening around them just happy to live their lives grateful for the little scraps the powers to be give them never knowing they really have the power to change the way things are because they were told they do not have the power to do so.

So we are creating a society where both imagination and dreams have become a lost land to most people!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXXXIV

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This week has slowly flown by with hardly a thought about work and all the issues that go with it. I am started to chill out and relax which nice upside I know I need to do things but not overly worried about things. It has meant I have got around to writing again both here on my journal and elsewhere though I still have to get around to doing something about my web sites which are long overdue change and revamping.

I am still working slowly on my own version of the 13th Age role-playing world modified to suit my style of running role-playing games plus just for the enjoyment of creating a new background from the tools given to me by 13th Age. It is certainly relaxing me in so much it makes me feel as if I am doing something and being creative rather than just feeling I am wasting my life away.

Though currently I have a focus for all this work as I have decided to go to sort of local role-playing group in two weeks time something which is long overdue and in the hope it finally breaks the cycle of myself wanting to stay at home avoiding the world. I am quite looking forward to it though due to my depression I am also really not wanting to do it as it feels like hard work. Welcome to the fun of depression which likes to make its life easier and mine harder!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXXXIII

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In the end today has been a good day as I have managed to get some writing done though I did not do as many chores as I would of liked but there is over a week of the holiday to go. It has shown just how much my work takes out of me both mentally and physically to a point it has started to eat into my life in a very detrimental way.

In the next weeks I need to really think about my future as this situation cannot continue any more as not being creative or productive outside of work is starting to kill me mentally turning me into the very thing I really do not want to be a sheep who just lives for work without a life.

So now I have to start to fight back to regain my life again which will be actually going to a Role-Playing Club near by so I can get back to role-playing again and start rebuild a social life again which is long overdue.

So this week and next I am going to take advantage and get some real writing done all long overdue and very good to my general well being.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXXXII

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Another day relaxing taking full advantage of the holiday from work and already work is but a distant memory of annoying times and on going hassles. Though it does look like I will have go to the Doctors with the issue in my shoulder as now I am getting two tingly fingers which is a little worrying.

It is going to be a couple of weeks catching up with the chores which have been long overdue and also catching up on some reading and writing. Though currently it is getting the confidence to start writing again which has been lost due to my issues with depression over the previous year due to work.

Once again I have to fight my depression in so much stop it taking away my creative side again and robbing me of the enthusiasm to do something more than just wasting my time on the internet generally doing nothing but getting angry with a world which currently I can do little about.

Though the fact I am back to writing this journal entry does indicate that my creative side is alive and kicking if only in short bursts!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXXXI

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Finally my post peek holiday has arrived a bit later than I wanted and against all odds as someone at work cheekily booked holidays at the same time as myself. The people in question have grown used to getting things when they want at the expense of everyone else. For those who do not know what peek is it is the Christmas and New Year which is busy time of year for me at work which is a doubly stressful time of year for me.

I have two weeks off which I will spend at home catching up the household chores which have been sadly missed over peek on top of which I aim to catch up on long over due reading and writing. I will also take the opportunity to start work on my new set of web sites especially now the usefulness of about.me has ended due to a poor upgrade to their web site. Hopefully the next few weeks I can lay down the foundations for the new web sites.

One thing I will try my hardest is not to worry about work and all the hassle that goes with it but I will have to do some things which will feel like work but all long overdue. So in the end I will have other things to worry about other than work which will be nice change.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Grey Technology For Grey People By Grey People!

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The biggest irony of the modern world is that a growing number of people are turning their backs on modern technology going back to older technologies especially with media because they believe the new technology strips the soul out of the media because it is too perfect.

Add to this a growing number of people are turning their back on the modern world and turning to Steampunk which embarrasses a Neo-Victorian technology and its look. That is machines full of cogs, gears and the such made to look beautiful and truly engineered unlike modern technology which looks bland, lifeless which has took functionality to an extreme.

With all this happening and fall of the sale of technology in general, regardless of the credit crunch, the big technology corporations have not got this simple fact and continue to produce the same old technology again and again in the same bland and unimaginative packages. It is as if they are still stuck in a 1980s and 1990s afraid to move forward or change.

If they do not wake up soon they will kill off technology on a fundamental level and turn people off technology for good which they will be responsible for stagnation of our society and technology in the Western World. Though the more paranoid may say it is part of a plan for the few to control the world by dragging people down to sheep who expect little from technology and be grateful for any crumbs the technology companies give them.

But I am of the opinion that the actions of these big Technology Companies will backfire and in the end they will be real losers. As the fact that people are starting to turn away from their bland technology and turn towards older technologies because the newer technology simply failed to make life easier and more productive which results a fall in their sales.

Add to the rise of the Open Source movement which produces technologies, be it software or operating systems, which produce technologies which are created by the people for the people not technologies which cost an arm and leg whose functionality is suspect.

All in all if the big technology companies keep on their present path of grey and unimaginative technology they will find themselves in the cold eclipsed by smaller companies and people who return back the imagination, innovation and fun back to technology will start to eclipse them. We can already see it happening with the return of vinyl and film but as always these companies stick their heads in the sand hoping it will go way.

But it is not as there are too many people out there like myself who want more than grey technology for grey people made by grey people and prepared to fight for it!

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

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