Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXXXV

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A fun day ahead with ourselves taking our one dog, Kali, to the vets to get her nails clipped. It gets us out of the house even if outside is very damp as the weather has decided to turn for worse as outside is damp.

At least other than a quick trip to the shops we can hide inside the house and avoid the outside world so it can do it worse until tomorrow. It will mean I can catch up on chores and do a little more on my own version of 13th Age world map which I managed to start yesterday. It was nice to start to draw a map again even if it is my version of an existing map which I can modify to fit my needs which hopefully make running 13th Age easier.

What a wonderful life I lead in so much most of the time it seems so mundane to most people though not helped much of my hobbies tend to involve either sitting in front of a laptop or blank sheet of paper and a pen rather than being something physical everyone sees. Though hopefully people read or encounter the results of my work elsewhere even here in this journal.

So life keeps going on it meandering path though this year is still showing a great promise of change for the better for myself, partner and other people around me.

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Imagination: The Lost Land!

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Something recently said to me got me thinking about the way our society for decades has suppressed people imagination even our ability to dream. Regardless of what I have always said recently it is not a recent phenomenon but something which has been going on for decades certainly after the 1960s.

I have been luckier than most people as my childhood I was never stopped though not really encouraged to use my imagination or dream but outside of my childhood home I lived in a world which never really encouraged such behaviours if anything subtly suppressed it. Especially at school which tended to promote idea of a more bland life of work and so called normality. The result is always the same in so much most people’s imagination and dreams become unimportant replaced by a work ethic with no room for the real fun side of life.

This did colour most of my life in so much I knuckled down to work with little real enthusiasm for life in general. Though I managed to still exercise my imagination as I still managed to play and run role-playing games. In my case it was also suppressed by my underlying depression.

It is only now after I have done something about my depression and finally figured out the most important for keeping your mental health good is allowing your imagination and dreams free as in the end it is part of what makes us human in the first place. So now because I allow myself to be more creative and dream more I am starting to feel much better about myself and happier inside. This something which has not happened in decades.

But this is at a time when this insidious suppression of people’s imagination and dreaming has become worse, even institutionalised, in our society around us to a point they use peer pressure to keep people in line. We are forced into what someone else thinks is normal and acceptable that is someone who works hard, always follows orders and does nothing to rock the boat. That is a wonderfully compliment people easily controlled by te powers to be.

We are constantly fed this image of normality and compliance throughout our media even down to entertainment we are fed via our television. Add to this an encouragement from the powers to be for people to chastise anyone who shows an inkling of imagination, dreaming or even a uniqueness mostly by making the person in question feel so small and uncomfortable.

In the end we are creating a society which lacks a spark of life given by people who use their imagination or dreams to move it forward. We are producing a society which is doomed for failure because it will eventually stagnate on so many levels.

But as always people nowadays are blind to what is happening around them just happy to live their lives grateful for the little scraps the powers to be give them never knowing they really have the power to change the way things are because they were told they do not have the power to do so.

So we are creating a society where both imagination and dreams have become a lost land to most people!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXXXIV

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This week has slowly flown by with hardly a thought about work and all the issues that go with it. I am started to chill out and relax which nice upside I know I need to do things but not overly worried about things. It has meant I have got around to writing again both here on my journal and elsewhere though I still have to get around to doing something about my web sites which are long overdue change and revamping.

I am still working slowly on my own version of the 13th Age role-playing world modified to suit my style of running role-playing games plus just for the enjoyment of creating a new background from the tools given to me by 13th Age. It is certainly relaxing me in so much it makes me feel as if I am doing something and being creative rather than just feeling I am wasting my life away.

Though currently I have a focus for all this work as I have decided to go to sort of local role-playing group in two weeks time something which is long overdue and in the hope it finally breaks the cycle of myself wanting to stay at home avoiding the world. I am quite looking forward to it though due to my depression I am also really not wanting to do it as it feels like hard work. Welcome to the fun of depression which likes to make its life easier and mine harder!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXXXIII

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In the end today has been a good day as I have managed to get some writing done though I did not do as many chores as I would of liked but there is over a week of the holiday to go. It has shown just how much my work takes out of me both mentally and physically to a point it has started to eat into my life in a very detrimental way.

In the next weeks I need to really think about my future as this situation cannot continue any more as not being creative or productive outside of work is starting to kill me mentally turning me into the very thing I really do not want to be a sheep who just lives for work without a life.

So now I have to start to fight back to regain my life again which will be actually going to a Role-Playing Club near by so I can get back to role-playing again and start rebuild a social life again which is long overdue.

So this week and next I am going to take advantage and get some real writing done all long overdue and very good to my general well being.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

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World Building: The Art of Being a God!

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Once again I am world building for a role-playing game again as the recent purchase of the 13th Age Role-Playing has inspired me to write again for role-playing games. As always it is a good exercise for my creativity and imagination as it always gets me thinking in more positive and creative ways.

Though role-playing has given me a good focus for something I have done since I was a child that is create worlds inside my imagination sometimes resulted in myself drawing things from these worlds when younger. Something which as I grew older I stopped doing as so called more adult things took up more of my time.

Role-Playing gave me a means as an adult to indulge in this childhood passion for creating imaginary worlds again but this time I could use the worlds within role-playing itself so they get a life of their own.

Though as always I used a core of an idea from elsewhere but modified it to suit my own brand of creativity and imagination which certainly make the worlds easier to run as role-playing game backgrounds as with better idea how the world works always helps.

Currently I have a number of worlds orbiting in my mind most of which are currently only partly written fragments of worlds but very clear ideas inside my mind and these include:

Bubbles in the Quantum Static, not a world as such but a background to connect all my worlds together as a common theme that runs through them all. The Quantum Static being the space between the Universes which appear as bubbles which float there. It is the home of the Pattern Masters an extra-planar humanoids who can create Universes.

Hampshire by Day and Night, a nearly complete World of Darkness background originally created for a Live Role-Playing Game which never took place. It is based around Hampshire with a Mage bias with heavy presence of both Tradition and Technocracy Mages.

Metroplex Europe, a far future world in which humanity has been forced to live in giant sealed Metroplexes because of a universe wise virus called Apocalypse Virus which changed very DNA of it’s victims usually with fatal results. It is a very grim view of a future with some hope as the Earth outside has recovered but the masters of the Metroplex are hiding the fact to keep their power over the people and their lives of luxury intact.

The Sapphire Empire, a 13th Age World based heavily on the Dragon Empire as given within the 13th Age Core Rulebook and modified so I can run it more comfortably and with more confidence as I will know more about the world because I changed it to suit my style of storytelling.

Void Jammers, a fantasy come steampunk space opera originally written for Radiance Role-Playing system which is based in a region of the Void, called the Ten Thousand Worlds, where void wide empires ply the space ways in magic driven space craft called Void Jammers. It is a larger than life space opera background where fantasy meets steampunk head on to create a wondrous world.

One day I will finish the work on these world to a point they will be in workable and playable state though I will have hours of fun getting there in the meanwhile.
Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

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13th Age: Unpromising Lands!

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I decided to treat myself this birthday to a new Role-Playing System something I rarely get to do over the past few years so I wondered off to my local Gaming Shop, The Two Fat Goblinz, and brought 13th Age by Pelgrane Press.

To be frank 13th Age did not look promising if anything yet another Dungeons and Dragons clone much like Pathfinder and I only really brought it as I wanted something new to read to inspire my role-playing creative side.

But on reading 13th Age I was very surprised indeed it was a clone of Dungeons and Dragons but a nice mixture of old Dungeons and Dragons with a modern free form twist which breaths life back into such Role-Playing rules and takes me back to the first days of when I started Role-Playing at University.

Buying 13th Age certainly fit the saying never judge a book by it’s cover and I would recommend it for those Role-Players who like the Dungeon and Dragon sort of games without the maze of rules which I have always thought slowed down Role-Playing games and certainly detracted from the story telling essence of Role-Playing.

The system is certainly for the more experience Dungeon Masters as it does expect a lot of work both before and during a game because of it free form nature but does solve issues of such games when the Player Characters insist of going off the plot. Helps that the system encourages the Player Characters to help to determine the direction of the story itself.

13th Age has got my Dungeon Master hat on again as I am starting to think of my own version of the 13th Age world and scenarios for a campaign of my own. It certainly pandas to my more free form style of Dungeon Mastering and tweaked my creative side.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXXXII

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Another day relaxing taking full advantage of the holiday from work and already work is but a distant memory of annoying times and on going hassles. Though it does look like I will have go to the Doctors with the issue in my shoulder as now I am getting two tingly fingers which is a little worrying.

It is going to be a couple of weeks catching up with the chores which have been long overdue and also catching up on some reading and writing. Though currently it is getting the confidence to start writing again which has been lost due to my issues with depression over the previous year due to work.

Once again I have to fight my depression in so much stop it taking away my creative side again and robbing me of the enthusiasm to do something more than just wasting my time on the internet generally doing nothing but getting angry with a world which currently I can do little about.

Though the fact I am back to writing this journal entry does indicate that my creative side is alive and kicking if only in short bursts!

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

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