It has been a fun and very interesting weekend with the Works Christmas party at a good place to eat which only real criticisms being the portions were slightly small and strangely lack of vegetables. But as always you have to expect such things at such place we eat at along with over priced drinks.

Though this was at side to what I really found interesting was just how little I have in common with my fellow work colleagues who struck me made little or no real effort to engage me in conversation even over simple every day subjects. They seamed more intent on their mobile phones than what was happening around the world around them. I found this very disappointing in the end but I should of expected it from previous social encounters with people I work with.

Those people who really know me even within Second Life know I can talk the hind legs off an Donkey especially when people make as much effort to have a conversation as I do most of the time. Though I do need the people around me who like to talk like myself about a wide subjects and humour even down to trivial chatter. What happened this weekend highlighted even more the need for myself to surround myself with people who challenge me socially and mentally so I can grow again.

I think some people at work will be a bit disappointed with what I have just said but I only need to work with people at work not socialise with them as I have always tried to separate my work and private life as it has always been the best way to keep me same.

Other than this I have started to feel like writing again even here on my blog though currently it is a little currently as I still keep finding other trivial things to do rather than write. As I have said previously I am fighting myself and my depression which I have once again allowed to get the better of me. This is as always a real battle with myself which I have to win every time to move forward a little more.

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It all starts today the fun of Christmas but this year the Christmas spirit seams very muted because of what is happening in the world around all made worse by people simply closing their eyes to it. It is difficult to get merry in a world which insists on going mad on a big scale.

At least at home is an oasis from all the madness of the world with my partner and dogs which as always keep me sane and grounded. For a day on Christmas Day I can potentially shut the mad world out and enjoy a day of eating, drinking and watching television generally doing nothing. It may be only one day but a much needed at the darkest time of the year.

The rest of the month will be marred by people getting themselves stressed because of Christmas and the misguided view they have to buy presents, enough food to feed the millions, most of which is wasted, and drink believing Christmas is better enjoyed drunk. As I work retail I will certainly will see the stress of people put themselves under because of Christmas which always comes out as impatience, ruddiness and general basic nastiness.

In the end I will be smiling inside as Christmas is meant to be fun not a self imposed purgatory some people make it. All their ruddiness and nastiness in the end really not worth the effort in the end as it never gain anything but make things worse for themselves and people less inclined to help them. It is one of those times of year being nice to people certainly will win dividends something these people seam never to figure out themselves.

After all most of them have the money to actually buy presents for people a privilege a lot of people even here in the United Kingdom as growing number of people on minimum wage have little hope to do so especially those who do not want to get in debt. Certainly a sobering thought this time of year such people close their eyes too.

In the end Christmas is not about presents or how expensive they are but time for family and friends to enjoy a day together.

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A Personal Schism!

Posted: 29 November, 2017 in Comment, Role-Playing

At the moment I am at a turning point with my Role-Playing in so much I want to move forward towards more story telling based games away from the more traditional heavily rule based role-playing as I after month of playing them have started to find them frankly boring and uninspiring to play.

The major issue I am having with rule heavy traditional role-playing games, especially likes of Dungeon & Dragons, is they are far too restrictive putting too much emphasis on combat and tactics rather giving both players and game masters latitude for role-playing. The games using these type of rules always end up much like computer role-playing games centred around a series of quests and combats with little real stories. This is regardless how hard a game master tries to push role-playing as very nature of the rules make this very difficult, if anything almost impossible to do effectively.

I have nothing against such traditional rule heavy role-playing and it players as they have their place in the hobby and such games are extremely good introduction to the hobby especially for those coming from computer gaming background. But other than this they are not conducive to long and more more in-depth games as their emphasis on rules makes real character and story development very difficult.

Myself I have now moved on to story telling games in which the rules become an ends to a means to give a role-playing a consistent base but do not get in the way of story and character development, if anything the rules make such things easier. In addition with rule light role-playing games the background becomes more important than the rules rather than the other way round with a more traditional rule-based role-playing games.

I now find running and playing more story telling based role-playing games far more rewarding as I do not feel like I am being restricted by rules and more freer to explore character and the game’s background. I find the whole experience of such story telling role-playing games a more personal and entertaining than the rule-based role-playing games.

As I said at the moment I am at a turning point with my role-playing either continue going to a local group in the hope I can find others within the group who think the same as myself, which is turning out to be difficult task to a point I am at the point of giving up. Or I leave the group and forge my own path as a Role-Player and a Story Teller and find like minded people locally something which is very temping at the moment.

It is sad I have to think like this but much as the rest of my life I am starting to feel trapped by the people around me who rather not move on and try new things which make me really feel like they are holding me back when I so want to fly at the moment!

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I have not been so uninspired to write as I feel currently in a long time all not helped by what is happening around me in my life. All made worse by the fact I feel so helpless as the world I have always known being turned over by people who put their own selfish and individual agendas before the greater good of all. This agendas ranging from Brexit to people simply wanting to go backwards to a point when they feel safer.

All this conspires to aggravate my depression and anxiety big time as currently I see no real future for myself other than grim future of constantly trying to make ends meet while the world around me falls apart due to peoples selfish and stupid actions.

Where I am currently is not a pleasant place to be as in the end I sit around doing nothing constructive playing pointless games feeling sorry for myself just wanting to find an escape from the current place. It becomes self perpetuating as once I am their it is very difficult to climb out of this dark place.

This currently made worse by being peak season at work which mean long hours and feeling constantly tired because it is constantly busy and lot of your customers are under self-imposed stress which tends to rub off on me which can make things more tiring. I will be glad when the New Year has been and gone as I can hopefully start to look forward again.

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Once again Autumn is here with a vengeance which as always means my mood drops and the season of colds and runny noses as always. Also never helped by the fact another peak at work starts again with all the fun of Black Friday and Christmas shoppers which would have been fun but for the fact modern people are not quite as friendly and patient as people were when I was younger.

It is one of those times when I am thinking of my future and wondering if everything is really worth the effort which at the moment I not thinking it is. As always never helps that I feel trapped in a situation I have no control over regardless of the fact that I do but my depression as always robs me of my confidence and inclination to do anything about it.

It has been frustrating few months as I’ve not had inspiration and inclination to sit down and write regardless of the fact my mind and imagination is full of ideas which I want to complete. Currently I am finding every excuse not to restart writing again almost as if my confidence has gone.

At some point I am going to have to force myself to start writing again as I have to as I need to stop the drifting through life as I am currently as it is not exactly productive and soul destroying for me. I need to do it for myself soon as I know it will make me feel better about my current situation.

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At the moment it is one of those times when I am bored with life all made worse by the fact I cannot write at the moment because I lack both the inspiration and inclination to do so. Never helped currently with myself feeling I am trapped in a place I really do not want to be currently.

Even writing this journal entry currently is hard work but it is needed to break the cycle I am in currently when I need to do something to move forward rather than feeling trapped as I do currently.

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Once again a Conservative Government here in the United Kingdom is blighted by sleaze, corruption and sexual abuse the second time in less than 50 years!

What makes this all worse the Conservative Party Elite and the Establishment they represent actually think this behaviour is acceptable and even try to hide it from the public. Both use it to keep their minions in line and hold on to power!

What is becoming clear it is time this is dealt with once and for all time with removal of the offenders from corridor of power, public life as such abuse and corruption is not acceptable any more in a civilised society.

But as always the British public will turn a blind eye to the abuse and corruption because it is easier to do nothing rather than make things better!!!

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