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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DLI

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Today feels like a let down far too quiet after a wonderful weekend away from home at a Steampunk festival, The Asylum, here in the United Kingdom. Such event remind me there is more to life than the mundane patter life has become for me currently.

What it does mean today I feel really down, alone and isolated from the world around me, a feeling not helped with the perception I live in a world which currently feels dull, unimaginable and run by people who are so remote from the world around them they are strangling everything I find so dear.

These are the things which make our world magical and forward moving which include imagination, dreams and most of all hope for a brighter and exciting future which are all lacking in out modern world as people now are so afraid of them.

But I am getting off the point as the Steampunk weekend gave me something I needed to be around with people who have imagination, dreams and most of all hope who to boot were friendly and not judgemental about other people. This is a feeling I should try to regrow within myself so I stop myself feeling sorry for myself in those darker times as I would be happier in myself if I had such feelings.

On a lighter note I saw the first show of Steam Powered Giraffe outside of the United States and I was blown away by the show they put on which was far more than I even hoped it world be. On top of this I got to see Professor Elemental on stage for the first time and he was also out of this world. All in all the whole show when beyond what I expected and hoped!

It does look like I will make a bigger effort to join more of the Steampunk scene as it gives me something I need at the moment and distract me from the mundane, sterile modern world around me. It may even inspire me to move on to better things even in my writing and role-playing.

So back to the grind stone which is my life in the faint hope I can overcome the current malaise I find myself in.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Lonely is the Pen!

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Sometimes I find the whole process of writing a very lonely thing indeed to a point I really do not want to do it as it makes me feel that down.

But I know that is the nature of writing be it either when I am writing my journal here or writing for a role-playing game as you have to be alone in front of piece of paper or laptop to actually write effectively. I need to be focused when I write so I can effectively write something down.

There is one thing which does keep me writing I the fact the stuff I write for role-playing games I get to actually see the joy and pleasure it gives other people when I actually run the role-playing games. This is a wonderful rush and inspiration to write more. It makes all my efforts worth while.

So in the end I will have to get used to feeling alone when I write as the end result can give others so much pleasure.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Of Dreamers and Idealists!

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As things develop here in the United Kingdom it is becoming the time for dreamers and idealists to come forward and leave those who choose to be sheep behind.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Power Is But An Illusion!

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I think this is worth saying again that governments and corporations only have power over the people as long as the people give them the power.

We all have the choice to give them power of not as after all governments and corporations need people to exist without people they are simply nothing but pointless organisations.

But it does take a brave person to realise this and do something about it.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Reds Under The Bed!

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What is becoming clearer and clearer those 171 Labour MPs in the PLP here in the United Kingdom are simply out to keep power at any cost and they are not real socialists but career politicians who want to keep their careers at any cost including at the cost of their party members, social ideals and most of all democracy.

Ironic really this sounds familiar as they shout about Trot infuriating the Labour party and they themselves are acting like the old Russian Communist Party under Stalin in so much removing those within the party which do not tow their party line to a point of removing those in the party who show descent in a very blatant way.

So before those 171 Labour MPs start to throw names at the CLP they really should examine their own policies as from where I stand it is they who are acting like the Trots and old Communist Party not the CLP!

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Getting Lost In Red!

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Those of you out there cannot of helped but not notice that my politics has become more red in recent months especially after the EU Referendum here in the United Kingdom, that is more socialist and less liberal.

Though to be fair my politics always had some socialist elements to it but over recent months because of what is happening here in the United Kingdom I have found myself becoming more and more anti-right wing especially Conservative because of their anti-European stance and the erosion economically, socially, morally and in my basic human rights all in the name of making the United Kingdom a safer, more prosperous and richer country.

The effect from where I stand is to make the United Kingdom into a country run by rich few at the expense of majority where moral, human rights even freedom of speech are sacrificed by a government not for the greater good but for an all ready super rich to make even more money at the expense of everyone else.

So in this background and the fact for the second time in my life time I have had to live through a Conservative Government which follows Neoliberalism policies at the expense of the people and the country itself which always leaves the country worse off than it started or results in a false boom which is always followed by deeper recession. Each time the country does not move on but goes backwards in so many ways and loses the respect of the world.

The first time being that of Mrs Thatcher’s Conservative Government of the 1990s which has many parallels of the current Conservative government of Mrs May and the previous one under Mr Cameron.

I want hope and I want things to be different not the some old government policies who help few and are leading the country into disaster all because of a defunct and now discredited political ideology called Neoliberalism which from my own observations has never worked and never work just how hard you try.

In this background I have finally got fed up of the Conservatives, Liberals and with the advent of Mr Corbyn who has shown by his actions and sheer belief in himself has given me a new hope and belief that the politics of the United Kingdom does not have to follow the path of the Conservatives and their now defunct Neoliberalism policies.

There is an alternative envisioned by Mr Corbyn and his supporters which returns back to a more modernised socialism which embraces the ideas of a fair, inclusive, community and a progressive United Kingdom which reflects a more modern world rather than old world and archaic of our the current United Kingdom under the Conservatives.

We need to reset the balance of this country back towards its socialist roots which created the NHS and encouraged people to get more involved in politics and the community. If we do not there is no real hope for this country as currently it is heading towards a big fall it will never recover from.

So as I grow older and more frustrated with the world around me my politics and views have become more and more socialist to a point I actually joined the Labour Party. I have become more sure that the hope and dreams of a better future here in this country lies in a future which involves more socialist views here not in conservative views.

In the end I am getting lost in the red of socialism!

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part DL

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It has been a long time since I have written in this journal but I have been both busy and living through another down which has robbed me of my main ability to get things done. But at least I am slowing coming out of it and returning back to a normality when I can be fully creative again.

Though my depression has not been helped by events at work and the world around me as currently the Labour Party Leadership battle here in United Kingdom and the Vampire: The Masquerade role-playing game have taken up a lot of my time lately.

Both have inspired me to be even more creative and helped to drag me out of my short down caused by my depression. Both are inspiring me to think of greater things as Labour Party leadership battle gives me hope of a real future here in the United Kingdom and the Vampire: The Masquerade role-playing game has reminded me I can run a dam fine story if I really put my mind to things.

In a strange way both are showing me currently that I can be more than I think I can be and can really change the world around me in different ways. I need to use both to catapult me on to bigger and better things in my life.

So I will be back to writing this journal every few while as things come to my mind and I once again get back into the habit again.

Watch this space!

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

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