Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXLVIII

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I have been cold today which is usual for late May which at the moment is making a mockery of the global warming argument who strangely keeping very quiet. It is not doing my mood much good as I rather be warm this time of year as it always makes me feel a lot better. I am hoping it gets warm again as I could do with the boost in my mood currently.

Other than that it has been interesting week away from work doing my civic duty serving on a jury in the local Crown Court which turned out it did me a lot of good as I had a break from work. It also highlighted just how toxic the atmosphere at work has become to a point it has started to make me feel ill.

The only thing which made the Jury Service a lot more stressful than it should of been was the fact the company I worked for did not have the good grace or real sense of civic duty to pay me during my Jury Service and expect a poorly funded Justice Department to foot the bill of the lost of any earnings.

I know companies have the choice if they pay someone or not during anyone’s Jury Service but I find it very low that modern companies choose their profits before their civic duty to the country as after all they have same civic obligations to the country which allows them to do business so by not giving something back other than taxes it really shows their disrespect they have for the country and it’s justice system. But their actions reflects the modern morality of business who put profits before everything else!

Now I have that off my chest the past few week have not been that bad if anything very successful outside of work with my first two sessions of my Vampire: The Masquerade Role-playing Game run at a local Role-Playing Group going down well with my Players. It seams I have not lost my knack of running Role-Playing Games if anything it was a lot easier than I expected. Though I still get very daunted by the prospect of the next session as in the background my lack of confidence still plagues me.

So it looks as if my Role-Playing will go from strength to strength as I play and run more Role-Playing games so currently it looks like I have a rosy future there which should start to lead to some more interesting possibilities outside of work.

In the end after today at work I really do need new possibilities even with work as it was not a very auspicious start at work as I have only been away from work for just over a week and the store looked a mess. Those responsible really did not care or understood why that is was so bad.

Work depending on a few and allowing others not to care they are really making a rod for their own backs so if those they depend on either leave or turn around and say they have had enough they are royally screwed!

But as always in the modern world people rarely look beyond their own noses and they really lack an understanding of their own effect on the people and world around them!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXLVII

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It is high time I start to focus the positive aspects of my life and work and let go of those negative aspects of my life as for far too long they have been destroying me from the inside. Always results in myself feeling down and useless in the end.

It is one of those times to count my blessing as in the end I have far more than I actually think which include managers who are prepared to push me forward and support me in my work, an outlet for my creative and imaginative side just to name a few.

But the hardest thing for me currently is not allow those negative things around me overwhelming me to a point that I feel that I am drowning but it is not me who is having the issues but those around me. I should remember the simple fact that as long as I do my best and work hard is all I can do and stop worrying and covering for those around me who are failing or not caring.

In the end they are not my responsibility and I owe them nothing as I have always lived a life my way especially in recent years not a life which everyone expects me to live. In the end it is only way to live life as it is less stressful and enjoyable.

In the end it is the time to count my blessings and let go of everyone else’s shortfalls as it is their problem not mine!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part DXLVI

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Last few weeks have been hard work on so many levels to a point the strain my end is starting to show in constant irritation. All this not helped by financial worries due to the prospect of Jury Service which has been made worse by company expecting the Jury Service to pay my wages while I am there. It is yet another nail in the coffin for me working where I am now it is getting myself moving to change jobs and find that elusive place which actually puts people first rather than currently who put business first at the expense of people on far too many levels.

Other then financial issues the Jury Service will give me a much needed rest away from an environment which is toxic on so many levels add to this a rarity a regular work pattern something sadly lacking currently. It will mean for two weeks I can plan my life rather than currently when I have to adapt my life to work pattern which on so many levels is wrong on so many fundamental levels.

Life is not all bad currently as I have finally got back to Role-Playing again regularly with a local group which finally means I have more of a social life locally outside of work which is starting to have a more positive effect on my life. That is rather than constantly thinking about work and more negative aspects of the world around me, now I can focus on something which is far more positive, constructive and exercises my imagination something which is long overdue.

It is a lot of work currently as I get back into both running and playing Role-Playing but as I get back into it everything will get much easier and to start to flow easier. It will also have a knock on effect of giving me a far more positive view of life and more energy to do other things rather than moping around feeling sorry for myself.

Finally I have started to run a Vampire: The Masquerade Role-Playing game at a local group which first few sessions have gone better than I expected all helped by a group of players who have thrown themselves fully into the idea of the game. They have created some wonderful characters which I can create a wonderful game and stories around.

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Something I Thought I Never Do!

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I will do something in the Local Elections here in the United Kingdom I never thought I would do in my life time and that is actually vote Labour!

All because I am for the second time over my life time the first under Mrs Thatcher and now under Mr Cameron I am witnessing my country being destroyed by a Conservative Party which puts the rich, business and their own power at the expense of the people of this country.

We as a country were damaged beyond repair during Mrs Thatcher’s Government which destroyed all of our heavy industry and sense of a community resulting in a country which put the individual and making money before people!

This job is finally being finished by Mr Cameron’s Government who is destroying our NHS, Education System and even Social Support systems to help those in our society who are vulnerable, that is the old, disabled, mentally ill and those who have lost their jobs due to the economic disaster of Mr Cameron’s United Kingdom.

After being lied to by the Conservatives again and again over the past 20 years with false promises who always said my life would be better because of their policies to find thank to the Conservatives in real terms my Utilities Bill have doubled, my wages have halved and my prospects of actually retiring with decent Pension gone!

Now I am angry Ex-Conservative and Ex-Liberal Democrat voter who wants to make the point I am not happy with both the Conservative and Liberal Democrats, their lap-dogs, who in past 10 years rather than making the United Kingdom a better place to live and work but turned the country into a hive of racism, bigotry against any one who is different and a country who thinks it quite acceptable to look down on people who are disables, mentally ill, poor and unemployed!

So in the end I will vote Labour though Mr Corbyn may not be the messiah to save the country and he does lead a party which still too full of New Labour MPs, slightly left-wing Conservatives or false Labour, but he has one thing that all other Party Leaders do not have he has the balls to speak his mind and actually believes what he says.

I urge everyone else to do the same in the local elections here in the United Kingdom so we the people here in the United Kingdom can send a message to Mr Cameron, the Conservatives and the Establishment we are not happy with them and if they do not shape up we will vote them out come the next General Election.

This message needs to be sent or the Conservatives will destroy the United Kingdom!

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The Wonderful British Public!

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Myself I am just wondering at what point will the British Public going to act?

After all the government is currently destroying our NHS, destroying our School System, marginalizing disabled people and even attacking our Human Rights by potentially opting out of the European Court of Human Rights.

And the large majority of the British Public seam to be very happy to let this happen thinking everything in this country is just fine, as always those are people who do not currently need help from the State!

I feel sorry for them as when they need help from the State because they have had an accident to find there is no free medical service or they lose their job and find they are marginalized by the people around them who will treat them as scum and scroungers!

All I will say to them is I and others told you so and we did tell you but you chose not to listen!

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Life is For Remembering!

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I was little annoyed with a persons near to me who found it funny that I always have a story or known someone who had done something they are talking about.

Few days ago for example someone made a joke they were going to stay over night at work as they had nothing to go home for to which I said I once knew someone who did that once which they found amusing and made some derogatory remarks much to my annoyance.

Myself I found this behaviour immature as just because, even with quiet life, I have travelled more, met a wider range of people, had more experience of work places so in the end it is not surprising I have few stories and memories of people, places and events as I have lived over half Century so far!

It does highlight a worrying modern attitude of people who constantly put down those who dare to be different in effort to make them conform to modern society’s strict, unimaginative and uniform nature where no one should be different!

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Extreme Measures But Need to Be Done!

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I am coming to conclusion the United Kingdom, much like Australia, should have compulsory voting as it is time to force those people to take part in our Democracy as by not doing so they are damaging it more than ever the Conservatives ever will!

This may be an extreme view in some people’s minds but I am fed up of living in a country with a large majority of people who give lip service to our democracy but do not take part in it.

Democracy by definition means we all take part running the country not a few!

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