It is getting time for me to push the Doctors again as the constant tiredness caused by my Anaemia is getting an issue again as if I walk somewhere the first thing I want to do afterwards is sleep again. All this a sign that my Haemoglobin levels are going down again and I rather head it off before it gets as bad as last time.

I know who to blame for the inordinate length of the NHS’s investigation into my Anaemia as the responsibility is firmly on our current Governments Austerity policies and underhand attempt to privatise our medical services. All this is making my personal situation worse and more dangerous than it should be all because a Government what’s to save money and sell our services to their rich backers at the expenses of people like myself.

I have to apologise but I am both annoyed and frustrated with the situation I find myself in as it is going to disrupt my life longer than it needs to do which is increasing my general sense of frustration and disconnection to the world around me.

Though it has not all been frustration as I have finally started, if slowly, to write for my Role-Playing group games again between the episodes of fatigue. It is a nice feeling and should start to help my feelings of disconnection with the world around me because I am not working currently.

I really hope I can keep this going as it should help me to put a more positive spin on my enforced rest caused by my Anaemia rather than my brooding on the more negative aspects of it.

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Again the Anaemia is making me far too tired to think or do anything as at the moment all I want to do is curl up and sleep. I am back to constantly sleeping again through the day and nights which seams to be only thing I can do well at the moment.

I think about writing but I cannot actually get down and start to write as I lack the motivation to do so as I find something easier to do which takes a lot less effort and thinking. All not helped by the fact it is going to take longer for the NHS to do their investigation than I would like though it is looking like I will have to gently push it to get them moving again.

The Bleed Anaemia is still there though things have stabilised again though it looks like my haemoglobin levels are still very low after all blood with looks very watery I definitely not a good sign.

What does not really help at the moment because I am feeling isolated from the world because I feel do not feel like doing anything because it tires me out. Also the fact I am not at work so I currently only interact with my partner and medical people sort of does not help.

I am getting to a point when I really wish everything is sorted and I can get on with my life and move forward.

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It is a fun day waiting for an Engineer to arrive and check out our washing machine over a wonderful 5 hour period so it is really lucky that I have little to do today though not for all the right reasons. I suspect that there will be not lot wrong with the washing machine as typical of the machine in question the fault has gone away though it is 9 years old which is amazing in itself.

Health wise I still feel a little delicate after Saturdays procedures in Hospital but that should not be a surprise. Now it is a waiting game for the next part of the investigation which could be another week doing nothing and feeling constantly under the weather.

This week I am most definitely going to get something done with my Role-Playing as I am fed up of the Anaemia laying me low and robbing my intensive to do anything. Though what does not help is every time I do something all I want to do is sit down and sleep afterwards.

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Where to start with the Role-Playing writing?

Because I am unsettled by everything going on in my life I cannot really focus on one thing currently when I need to not to be dragged down into a pit of worry over something I cannot do anything about. It’s not as if what is happening is going to be a great change in my life though it will make me a bit more fragile in the end.

I am back to were I was before Christmas a point when I want to do so much but I do not have the energy or mind well enough to focus on something because of the Anaemia. All I can do currently worry and sit around feeling sorry because of the lack of energy.

I know I need to dig deep within myself to get something started as I cannot let this problem dominate my life so much I allow it to slip away. I want so much to start as I have so many ideas inside my mind which want to come out which is starting to frustrate me again.

I need to find a way to get my mind started again!

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Typical of me the Endoscopy and Colonoscopy I had yesterday in Hospital came clear for bleeds which could be responsible for my Bleed Anaemia so the investigation continues which means I am still at rick and cannot work. So the first Doctors who diagnosed the Bleed Anaemia were right my case was not typical and could be one of those cases where the cause is not so obvious.

So once again I am looking at more medical investigations some of which could be evasive an potentially painful but after yesterday as the Colonoscopy which was not that comfortable even with sedation so what is ahead will still be scary but not as much as it would have been before yesterday.

It still would be nice to find what is going on but it looks like it is going to be long protracted affair due to a money starved NHS. It is not exactly the way I wanted to get time and rest from work but now I know it’s going to be long affair I can start to do other things which are less taxing on my body rather than allowing the whole thing drag me down.

Irony this is the second summer which has not exactly been uneventful as last year it was my partner who spent part of the summer in Hospital. There is always a hope next few years I will get uneventful summer so I can enjoy it without worrying about other things.

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Sadly I am being a victim of the Conservative Government’s NHS squeeze a process which should of only be a quick process which due to lack of funds given to NHS is going to turn out to be process which is going to take over month to solve.

I don’t blame the NHS but I blame Mrs May’s Government totally whose unnecessary Austerity measures have starved the NHS all in an attempt to force us to use Private Health Services which people like myself cannot afford.

What makes this worse for me I have a Bleed Anaemia which has already endangered my life once and it could do the same again at any time.

All this so Mrs May’s Government can claim the NHS does not work and force us all to take out Medical Insurance from Companies which are paying the current government to destroy the NHS.

This jut highlight how corrupt our government here in the United Kingdom has got especially the Conservative government which runs the country for big business and an elite at the expense of the people.

All made worse by a Labour Party more intent on destroying itself and ignoring it own voters. A Labour Party which now supports the Conservative plans to destroy the country than be saviour of our NHS and public services.

So in the end I am yet another person effected by the Conservative Government’s policies and I an very unhappy about it as because of them I cannot work, I do get full pay luckily, and they have put my own life at risk!

All for what? Nothing!

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Oh goody life is such fun currently as I’ve managed to pull two sets of muscles down my right hand side which normally would only be issue for few days but because of my Amnesia such pulls do not heal well or if at all. So it is making my life very uncomfortable indeed to a point it is making me feel very miserable and down.

I know that I have second part of the investigation this Saturday but my current state and worry about Saturday is not really helping my current mood. Add to this the fatigue associated with Amnesia is back with a real vengeance especially this morning I woke up still feeling tired and with little real inclination to do anything.

At the moment it is a case of fighting my down and feeling useless which currently I am losing especially when I attempt to do something creative I cannot focus for a long period of time to do some much needed good.

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