Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXXX

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This is an unusual day as I feel like adding to my journal twice today as it’s been one of those days because I have not been feeling my best I have felt really disconnected to the world around me. But in the end the rest was needed as I am starting to feel human again to a point I actually cooked something proper tonight something I have not felt like for last few days.

Only down today is that I have yet another long day at work tomorrow and on my present form I will end up ill at the end of the day yet again and most definitely stressed at work. All not help yet again by someone at work not thinking before they think and picking up some extremely bad management habits from a previous ineffective manager. Sadly they are one of those people who are easily lead and incapable at times to actually think for themselves.

Other than all this I have been quiet inside happier to watch the world though I am little frustrated that I have not found any Role-Players locally so I can start once again playing and running Role-Playing Games which should stop myself feeling so isolated from the world and people around me.

All this in an effort to stop work being the centre of my world which is never a healthy thing for anyone to allow to happen in their lives!
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Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXXIX

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After yesterday at work which was a long day my legs were really playing up I am having a day resting my legs which frankly very annoying indeed as I hate being laid low by a body which insists on making my life more difficult than it needs to be.

Add to this the constant problems with my hearing playing up, especially yesterday, life physically is being a bit of a pain currently so once again once I am rested I will have to visit the doctors again this time not for some anti-depressants but for something to make the physical side of my life easier.

At the moment my life seams to be one battle after another battle which is slowly wearing me down to a point I just want to give up as it starting to not to be worth the effort any more.

Though each time I reach a low, I stop and start again in the hope that things get better the next time.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXXVIII

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Another quiet day ahead before another fun day at work though this week I only work two days so sort of holiday not quiet what I wanted as thanks to a manager at work I did not get a much needed proper holiday.

But besides that point I get another day to write and rest my weary body which is complaining big time currently because of the long days and the onset of autumn and cooler weather. I’ll use the opportunity to do some writing which is long overdue. It time I felt again that I am doing something which is creative and constructive.

Plus I need to stop putting off chasing up old friends as it feels like currently I am always finding something else to do all to do with my depression.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to Bubbles in the Quantum Static.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXXVII

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I am still here but I have been busy elsewhere for last few weeks to concentrate on writing anything and once again there has been a change in my pattern in my life though nothing bad if anything all very good.

The major one being the one Manager who caused my a lot of trouble at work has been moved store though the other supervisor who insists on constantly talking down to me is still there. This is starting to cause a big issues to me as I am finding it very offensive and annoying as they are not treating me with proper respect as a fellow human being. I suspect they think their behaviour is acceptable because they are my supervisor but regardless it simply not!

This unlike the other manager is a minor issue compared with the manager whose behaviour over the past year has meant I have had to take the anti-depressants just to function normally. This has been highlighted by the fact I can cope with everyday life without the anti-depressants since he has gone.

Just shows the effect peoples actions, attitudes and how they interact with someone who has depression can have on them and their quality of life. I am not advocating that people treat people with depression differently than anyone else but actually think very carefully how they interact with such people and understand they can have negative effect on someone who has depression if they get it wrong.

Though the truth in the matter we should treat all interactions with people in the same way as after all if we did I suspect we would get on better. But as always a large majority of people really far to self centred and unthinking to understated their effect on those around them.

So as always I start off the next part of my journey in my life with the home things will be different on this part of the journey.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to Bubbles in the Quantum Static.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXXVI

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It is finally nice to have my life settling down to a pattern and free of one major source of stress which will finally mean I can move on with my life and not be held back by stress itself. It has also meant I am back to feeling like writing again along with finding both local Role-Playing group and getting back in contact with old friends I have lost contact with over the years.

I now have no real excuse not to move on in my life that find a new job, friends even a social life as I cannot use the stress as an excuse not to move on any more. If anything I should give myself a good kick up the ass as it is long overdue I did as I need to change my life on a fundamental way to move on.

I do need to move on as I need to have new experiences and meet new people to cultivate my creative side as currently where I am is slowly killing me as the whole atmosphere is not really conducive to my creative side and imagination. This is not meant to be a dig at where I work and people I work with but it is the nature of where I work and the people who work there.

As for work other than one now little annoyance of a supervisor and some of their associates disrespectful behaviour towards me and others it will become less of a problem in my life other than usual issues we all get with at work with those who do not do their jobs or dam right lazy. Something we all have to cope with at work.

On top of which I am finding the current events in the world even more amusing as they are certainly indicating those people who are in power in the world are really stupid people and I find it a total mystery how they got into the position of power in the first place!

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to Bubbles in the Quantum Static.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXXV

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I have been been quiet over the last few weeks as mostly as I said before I have been busy with my own small social network creation and I have not really felt like writing anything as I have been very quiet inside.

Though that is all likely to change as there has been a major change at work as the manager who was causing me major issues with my depression on a very fundamental level has been moved on to another store which has resulted in myself feeling much settled inside. It amazed me just how much devastating effect a personality clash can have on someone suffering depression especially when the other person involved really lacks a fundamental understanding of human nature.

So now I can settle at home enough to really start to rebuild my life without the constant and unneeded stress caused by work something which is really long overdue. It will be nice to finally not to have issues at work constantly blighting my life at home and move on for once.

Now I need to get my fingers out and catch up with old friends and get back to writing again as both are long overdue.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to Bubbles in the Quantum Static.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXXIV

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I am still here just very quiet at the moment as currently I am constantly tired and mood not to share things with people. I have times like this after a long stressful times in my life though currently the amount of stress in my life is being reduced due to changes at work for the better.

It has become very apparent at work than for a long time a number of people have been blatantly bending the truth to look good to those above them at a cost to the people around them. It really showed a lack of understanding and basic humanity in the people in question who put their careers before other people.

Sadly welcome to our modern world of business blinded by it’s own greed, corruption and lack of morals which has forgotten it serves society not that society serves them. As I keep repeating business and their owners are nothing without society and if society turned it’s back on them they would wither a die regardless of how rich and powerful they are. After all if no one takes their money and ignores them they stop being rich and being powerful but as always people fail to understand this and keep them where they are because of their ignorance of their true power!

On a lighter not I have started to rebuild my small personal social network as an exercise to keep in practice using WordPress and BuddyPress in general along with their plugins and themes. It is pleasant to be creative again after last few weeks of being tired and closed inside myself.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

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