Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXXIII

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Another period of being quiet inside myself which means I have not been very creative over the past week if anything been very sleepy and uninspired with my life in general. Though this may all change over the next few weeks as things at work change for the better at last some troublesome managers and supervisors are being moved on.

This should finally remove some major factors which have caused by depression to be aggravated over the past year. In so much I will be less stressed at work due to people’s actions some of which have been very selfish and self-centred to a point it has been detrimental to me and others there.

I should start to get time to think of other things rather than obsessive about things pointless things due to my depression being tweaked by people’s actions. Finally I may get around to just figuring out what type of new job I want and start to look for a long over due new job. Add to this I may finally get around to be settled enough to be creative again.

Most of all I might even be able to settle down finally and get on with my life again which will include catching up with some old friends I lost contact when I left Facebook. Somewhere I am never going to go back too as I do not like a company dictating to me about my privacy on line.

So once again I start an effort to restart my lifr again so wish me luck again!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXXII

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Today is a more reflective day spent finishing off much needed chores and writing some blog entries on top of which actually enjoying a wonderful, if rare, Sunday doing nothing even shopping. This is exactly what Sundays are for to rest and reincorporate from the week and world not what those in high places and business another day to shop or work.

It is a sad fact we live in a world which does not allow people to stop and all have one day when everyone stops at once. This at the detriment of both people and society as a whole as Sundays used to be time when families and friends could socialise without the spectre of work.

So today is going to be good day when I can enjoy my life with my partner and dogs without the spectre of work and shopping. All made better that the day is a pleasant Summer day without the dreaded rain forecasted. So for once the world is right in my world.

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXXI

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Today is a day of rest and reincorporation from a few difficult weeks at work which in the end frustrated me big time mostly because of people’s bad attitudes towards me and others. I have to cope with people around me who seam incapable of treating each other with respect and constantly talk down to everyone around them.

But that is the culture which has formed at work all made worse that most people actually think their behaviour is acceptable and normal. I know some people are under pressure at work but this does not give them the excuse to treat people in a bad way but sadly it is only way some people can cope with pressure but to lash out at people.

In the end all I can do is try to rise above this poisonous culture at work and not allow myself to be dragged down into it as in the end the people around me will find it will eventually damage them and their careers. All very sad but people always find it easier to fall into this pattern of behaviour rather than swallow their pride and move on.

Outside of work life is settling back into a pattern all helped by having two evenings a week which I will not work under any circumstances which slowly starts to rebuild a life for both myself, my partner and dogs. All in effort to put work back in its place within my life and break it’s domination of my life once and for all time.

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXX

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It has been a traumatic few weeks for me all because of those people who put business before people regardless of the negative effect it has people. It all has made my constant fight with my depression more difficult than it should have been at a time I was almost starting to get things settled.

But in the end it was sorted out though I suspect the person who caused all the issues will attempt to make my life difficult which simply will not work other than it will land them in trouble and it will give me more ammunition to fight back against them. Sadly the person is question is not the most smartest person in the world if anything not the most mature of people I ever had the misfortune to work with.

As I said elsewhere the simple fact that I now stop being scared about life and people, I have far more mature view of the issue and now see it as yet another problem to cope with. It is a far more better place to be than some decades ago as whole situation would have been enough to push me into a deep depression.

So now my life marches on towards and unknown and better future which is still unknown.

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXIX

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It has been a very eventful week at work al caused by those who focus on currently trivial matters to a point they are causing people a lot of stress and anxiety to a point it is also destroying the moral of the place I work. Moral has reached such a low people are seriously thinking of leaving as the whole situation is becoming untenuous for the large majority of people there.

Add to this certain person at work has ignored an agreement made between myself and the main manager all because they put the business before people to a point they will step on people and any agreements made. Basically they have shown a total disregard for other people even a basic respect for other people and in my opinion need to learn the lesson they cannot simply treat people that way!

Personally I am fed up of the person in question as they seam to lack a basic understanding of people and their feelings and they are ironically in a position which it is a must to function effectively. Add to this they openly lie to those above him and use people below them so they look good to the people above them regardless of the effect and damage they cause to people.

As always I am fighting against things in my life which insist on making my life more difficult most of which I have no control over though the current situation I certainly do have control over and I can fight to change it. This will be once few times I need to stand up and fight as if I let it slip it will do untold damage to my self confidence and my underlying depression worse.

Sadly work once again has intervened in my life in an unwanted due to people really not understanding the effect they can have on others and that there is more to life than work.

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXVIII

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Just has a quiet day off much needed after the last few days at work which were stressful not to the job itself but because of the unacceptable behaviour of people who claim to have management skills and can cope with stress. Ironically on both counts the people in question really cannot cope with especially as adults.

Other than that the day has been a good one during which I have managed to rest and wind down from the previous few days though as per usual I did not manage to get everything I wanted done though the more important chores have been done including food shopping. It was one of those days when ordinary if boring life was welcomed by myself.

Outside of work life has been quiet as I have not been in the most creative mood as the weather has been too hot which always makes me very lethargic plus the stress at work never helps as it distracts me even at home by not allowing me to relax to be creative.

Hopefully this will only be a temporary glitch and things get back to normal my end and I start to be creative again!

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Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDLXVII

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Life has got back to it’s normal routine of work trying to dominate my life all because there are those who still do not understand that life should always become before work as work is only part of our life and not all our life. As I have said before my job is an ends to a means not my life comes with age this realisation as you figure out there is more to life than just work.

Talking of work I have come to the conclusion that people there are so wrapped up in getting their targets they have simply forgot the basics of actually doing their job. It seams it has escaped them their job involves actually communicating with people and giving them what they want and need not what they and company think they need.

But this reflects the culture of the company I work for which frankly lost its way in a sea of targets and figures. It simply has forgotten why it is there, how to actually make money and survive a long period of time. Currently I really do not see the company lasting much longer in its current form as it really needs to go back to basics to survive. But as always with the Western World greed and a short sightedness blind those who run the companies so doomed to failure by their actions.

Outside of work life is a little quieter other and relaxed as I enjoy the long days of Summer when I can get so much more done and feel far more alive than shorter days of winter. At least this year I can enjoy the summer because I am controlling my moods and depression with the anti-depressants. It is this year a very pleasant place to be.

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