At the moment I am stepping away from the world slightly so I can take stock of things in my life and to fight the effects of my depression over the past few weeks. I think people have gathered that I have had not the best attitude to life and world around me to a point I simply wanted to give up on everything. All due to a frustration caused by feeling that I am powerless to change the world around me.
So currently I am sort of watching the world passively trying not to get involved in anything too deeply to give me time to recover my earlier more optimistic and forward looking mood I started this year with. I knew that I would go through such down times through the year as it is part of my depression and I know I have just gone through one as now I am constantly tired as recovering from a down.
On a more positive note thing have not all been bad as work has been quiet and outside of work I have been slowly working on my own version of the 13th Age role-playing game world. It seams 13th Age has inspired me to write for role-playing games especially scenarios and backgrounds for it and so I can run them. It is a very positive place to be as it makes me feel as if I am actually achieving something constructive.
Add to this Sunday I actually intend to go to a local role-playing group so I can finally get back to running and playing role-playing games again rather than talking about it. It is both a very scary and exciting prospect as it been a long time since I have been out and really socialised with new people. It is a big step forward in my life which hopefully lead to rebuilding of a life outside of work and road to a life less effected by my depression.
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