At the moment my various journals feel like my only connection to the world around me which is all to do with the debilitating effect of my depression which effects the way I connect with the world around me.
My depression currently robs me of the inclination of actually leaving the house or doing anything outside of the house other than work and shopping. It has made be so self-sufficient that I really do not need people or social contact or so I think.
But anyone who knows me especially through my journals will know this is far from the truth as I like everyone else need people and social contact especially to keep my depression at bay and simply because I am human being which is a social animal.
But at least I have a partner and dogs here so not totally a bad situation to be in but inside my head my current situation is very frustrating as I have been saying I will do something a hobby but each time my mind find an excuse not to do it or always says do it tomorrow and never does it.
As always it ends up a battle between myself and my own mind to get me to do something different which I know I can win after all in the last year I have been blogging something which I would of never done some 5 years now.
So in the end I know I can win but it has always been a difficult battle!
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