Once again quicker than most of us expect the New Year is back upon us again this time the year 2015 and to myself it still feels like it was the year 2000. Just amazing how the years roll by without ourselves noticing it especially when we are asleep to the world around us.
But unlike previous New Years especially last year this New Year has a different feel to it in so much unlike last year when we were struggling financially due to the fact we had just moved house under less than pleasant circumstances caused by overly pushy family who literally forced us to move. All this making for a very stressful start to the year for everyone concerned.
This year has a better feel to it though we are still struggling financially and the new house is not totally perfect if anything it has number of faults the old house did including working central heating but the main difference this year is that we are more settled in a home which will be ours eventually and starting to look forward to a new future which may or may not be much different to our past.
In the end through the trials and tribulations of my life over this year I actually managed to achieve things which to some people may be very trivial and pointless things but for those of us like myself who have been suffers of depression will understand even doing these things is real achievement in itself.
The main achievement being the fact that I have finally started to working on controlling my depression again but this time not over the short term but over the long term so I can finally get to a point of an equilibrium in my life so I can start to move forward again and fall back into the sleep of depression again.
The other achievements are ones which most people will find trivial but those in the know will understand actually getting these things to work takes some real know how and work to achieve. I am talking the things I have done on my computers here which include hosting my own web site, one of my blogs, setting up a small social web site and most gratifying setting up a Linux Server itself made from discarded windows computer.
All this proves to myself I have not lost the old magic I had with computers during my programming days just I can now focus on other things with computers now that is I now have more strings to my bow where computers are concerned.
Though all this has eclipsed by the fact I discovered this year I could actually write, be it in form of blogs, though a still a bit rough around the edges but from other peoples reaction to it very effective even getting some what I would call positive feed back.
I am not arrogant to believe that I will ever bee a great or memorable writer but the basic fact for someone who spent most of this life believing he could not write it has been a real revelation. All made even more satisfying as most of my early life I was told both by my teachers and peers I was stupid and incapable of expressing myself both speaking and writing.
In the end this year with all its problems has ended up a good year to build a better and more fulfilling future upon. Much like last year I start the New Year on an optimistic note as things can really get better and I am starting to think the world is my oyster again!
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