As always my depression has been working it’s devious ways on me over the last few weeks in so much it has made me constantly tired, irritable and worst of all made me feel empty inside. This is even when I am on the anti-depressants but at least it is not the deeper downs I used to get when I was not on them.
But it has meant over the last few weeks I have been very quiet generally and not exactly very sociable or even wanting any real human contact other than shallow everyday sort of interactions. On top of which it knocks my creative side for six to a point I feel empty and desolate inside.
It makes makes feel empty inside in the end as I in the end my life feels like it is pointless and not worth it. This in itself is a very destructive thought which I have to fight once it arrives in my head.
But at least now I know these phases of my depression are only temporary even if they last months they will eventually disappear especially when I start to ignore theses negative feelings. One day soon I will wake up and be creative and full of life again and these difficult days will be forgotten again.
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