In so much it has robbed me of my personal opinions including political and social opinions as at the height of my depression I would state an opinion but could not back it up with consistent argument or allowed people to talk me out of my opinions. This has occurred since my 20s so for a large majority of my life I have had no real personal, social or political views of my own basically I was not a real person as I lacked something everyone else has.
This has only become very apparent this time I am fighting my depression which finally got me thinking about things including politics and society in general and finally start to form opinions of my own and to back them up with consistent argument and strength of character to be true to the opinions.
This is revaluation personally as I start to feel I am real whole person its highlights just how the depression had robbed me of the person inside me. It does feel that the depression had robbed me of myself but now I am coming out of my depression it is finally nice to start to become the person I want to be not the person the depression wanted me to become.
Strangely I am not resentful about the fact the depression had robbed me of my life but I am more thankful that coming out of my depression I am becoming the person I always wanted to be even if it is some 30 years later than most people!
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