Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDXIII

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After feeling sorry for myself earlier tonight after a particularly bad day at work not due to customers but work in general due to a them and us atmosphere being created by the management themselves which in the end going to cause a big issue sooner than later.

Myself I am getting to a point of allowing them to continue as one team at work which I am part of is very effective and profitable while the other is getting less effective and useful to the store in general. As in the end I will be telling the management I told you so when they start losing much needed people in the business and through their actions they will not have anyone effective enough to replace them.

I promise not to laugh at them but it seams the short sighted bug has reached work as in rest of the country and as the rest of the country they will reap what they sow while those of us who are little brighter who can see the bigger picture will just end up laughing at them.

But hey I have remembered the job is just a way to earn money and I am really good at my job or any job especially when I put my mind to it. Add to this the people at work need me more than I need my job and them as I said above they have sort of put al the eggs in one basket.

Though I am getting more and more fed up that work is needlessly stressing me out to the detriment of my home life even if it is only part of my week not all my week. I have to learn again to not allow work to screw up my home life something which too me a long time to do last time but always worth the effort.

One good thing is tonight the stress of work has got me writing this blog which in itself is not too bad if it is a little rough.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDXII

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I am having day of rest after the previous week as my body has complained all week for no real reason other than it was the result of being stressed some two weeks ago. Always the way things go with myself and I suspect something I have to live with.

It still be a very quiet week for me creativity which still happens though now I wait until I get the inspiration to create again rather than get frustrated about it. I know I will get creative again but it will happen again usually suddenly without warning. Though currently the fact that I have got stressed at work my be having an effect as I am too tired to focus long enough to do something.

I still have a lot to do including the recreation of my small social network for friends and the such using WordPress. I have been slowly working on it which included finding an appropriate WordPress theme for a social network. I have found one which now I am in the process of tweaking it’s settings to recreate a similar look to the previous incarnation of the social network. All gives me more experience using WordPress and it’s set again so all good.

Currently I am trying to motivate myself to do some chores and cook always a hard thing to do on a day off after a hard week at work. So wish me luck.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDXI

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I have been a little quiet here as both work has been tiring me out and I have been modifying my home pages to add a social network to replace the previous one created by Oxwall which turned out to be far unstable for long term use.

Work as always is tiring me out overly because of the stress of the last few weeks caused by those around me taking the whole issue of work far too seriously. All added too with my depression has started to act up again as the onset of Autumn but I should not be surprised as Winter always put in a darker mood as the nights draw in.

As for my previous Social Network, On the Other Side!, I was very disappointed almost angry with the Oxwall software which turned out to be very usable especially it’s plugins which meant every time the software and plugins were updates there were constant issues some of which caused major issues to a point I gave up on it.

So the last week I have been looking into WordPress social network plugins and setting up my home page to allow it to be plugged into my existing WordPress based home page. I suspect it will end up a lot easier to maintain than previous Oxwall version and certainly more stable.

So now I have the fun of recreating my On the Other Side! Social network using WordPress which should keep me busy for the next few weeks. So watch this space as I get creative again with WordPress and imagination.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDX

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I have been quietly as I’ve not been in a very creative mood because of work sort of knocking me around in so much it has overly stressed me out. Another week where I allowed work to get under my skin though not helped by some of the worse customers over the past two weeks appearing in the store.

As always the worse customers basically have a bad attitude to life and other people to a point they wound me up almost to a point I almost told them to go forth and multiply. Just a shame sometimes they inflict themselves on the world and the poor people around them.

I have also been quiet inside as my depression is playing up inside my head making me feel unwell both physically and mentally not helped with the onset of Autumn here which always brings cooler and damp weather. Winter has always has this effect on me and a lot of people like myself.

So hopefully the quiet period I am experiencing currently is short as I would like to get back to creating things again sooner and later. I did find writing this a bit difficult as my mind is not functioning as well as it should or has in the past!
Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDIX

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It has not been the best start to the week with really stressful day at work yesterday all caused by customers basically knowing nothing about both retail law and computers. They had got to the point that I would of told them to go away and stop being really stupid as I really have better things to do and there are people with real problems out there!

Luckily today I have had a much more peaceful day relaxing and taking stock of things especially how I feel about my life and job. Currently I can take and leave the both of them how I feel at the moment!

Well at least today I can relax and get some blogging and chores done before yet another long run of shifts at work. Though currently the stress in my life is currently blunted my creativity though I am hoping this is only temporary glitch and not signs of a new down.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDVIII

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Today has been the sort of day I needed away from people writing blog entries which have put the worlds to right sort of thing I have to do every few while. Though it is not surprising I wanted a day way from people writing as after previous few weeks some people around me have managed to fire of my depression with their actions some of which were very unthinking.

Though I still feel strangely unsatisfied about today as it feels like I have achieved nothing even been creative regardless of the fact I have written blog entries. It wonderful just how my depression robs me of any satisfaction gained from any creative endeavours I do but I keep fighting the feeling and slowly winning.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDVII

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Last few days have not been the best for me regardless that something around me are going better around me in so much we got some old computer hardware which we can use for new computers here. I know this sounds trivial to anyone else but people who know me will know it is a big thing for both of us here.

But inside my own head currently feels like the world around me is shattering and becoming distance from me again because of certain things which have occurred around me which I will not go into here which have meant I feel alone inside again.

I know this sounds very negative but as always I will have good and bad days as I come out of a down caused by my depression and this weekend was one of those times when I went through a minor down.

On a more positive note we have found a group here who walk their dogs as a group on a field next to the castle in my home town which has meant both ourselves and dogs now get some social contact with people with people locally even if it is for a few hours every few while. This will help both myself, partner and dogs as we all get some social contact and start to feel generally better in ourselves. In my case add yet another connection to the world around me so I do not fall inside myself again and allow the depression to take me over again.

As for work it just goes on it’s merry way with the people shooting themselves in the feet in various spectacular ways and speeding towards a precipice in total ignorance. But that reflects our modem world of work and life in which people constantly avoid issues and rocking the boat regardless!

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

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