The one thing depression did to me at it height of its hold on me in my younger days it forced me to live a life of fear of almost everything. The most debilitating fear being the fear to actually have a life itself!
My whole live was coloured by the fears created by my depression to a point I could not function as a human being in so much I’d never say no, do anything new just in case I’d fail or be laughed at and the worse I was afraid that I end up alone so I had to like everyone even if I disliked the person in question.
All made worse I was so afraid I could not even have opinions or beliefs of my own just in case I upset someone else even to a point I end up agreeing with people about things which were against my own view o the world and morals.
All this was very soul destroying and helped to destroy who I was and could be.
But since I finally did something about my depression this fear has melted away leaving only the normal fear everyone has not the unfounded fears the depression gave me. Also I have finally stopped being afraid to voice my opinions even back them up with thought out arguments and most most of all not to be afraid to be wrong and admit when I am!
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