Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDXIV

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For the last two weeks I have been very quiet inside and far from being creative with no end in sight. It currently feels like that I have gone asleep again and it may be why I am getting angry with the world once again because of the frustration it always being to me.

Though the past week I have been working on an alternative to the Oxwall Social Web Site I had which has ended up being a Buddypress Social Web site bolted on top of my existing WordPress.org web site. So this has also meant I have been quiet as I slowly work on setting it up which is going very well though selecting useful Buddypress plugins can be a slightly annoying at times. But in the end it looks like I will end up with a much more stable social web site.

So I may be feeling a little frustrated by my lack of creativity elsewhere I have at least achieved something this week be it a bit more slower than I would normally do so not all bad.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

Sleep Walkers!

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The only way I can describe a lot of the people around me is sleep walkers as they seam to live their life asleep to what is going on around them even close to home. They never question anything they are told by those in authority, media even their peers almost as if they are too lazy to care or do anything about it.

So around me the world goes to sleep and it shows in a world which does not move forward any more if anything all we get as new things which are rehashes of older things and not exactly new and people just accept this as normal.

The world currently is sleep walking into the future which currently just looks much the same as the present which will just end up a rehash.

Though there are those people who are awake but mostly they are among those who want to take advantage of the fact the world and it’s people have gone asleep and become rich and powerful. Though they still seam to be asleep lacking a real imagination themselves ironically.

This may seam a very dark picture of the world but just do the same as done every few while just look and take in the world around you and you will be surprised just how static the modern world has become and how the people around you seam to sleep walk through life.

Though out there it is not all bad as you will notice those people who are still awake and they are easily see as those people who still have opinions and they will voice them. They are the colourful people who stand out from the crowd who are most definitely individuals.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDXIII

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After feeling sorry for myself earlier tonight after a particularly bad day at work not due to customers but work in general due to a them and us atmosphere being created by the management themselves which in the end going to cause a big issue sooner than later.

Myself I am getting to a point of allowing them to continue as one team at work which I am part of is very effective and profitable while the other is getting less effective and useful to the store in general. As in the end I will be telling the management I told you so when they start losing much needed people in the business and through their actions they will not have anyone effective enough to replace them.

I promise not to laugh at them but it seams the short sighted bug has reached work as in rest of the country and as the rest of the country they will reap what they sow while those of us who are little brighter who can see the bigger picture will just end up laughing at them.

But hey I have remembered the job is just a way to earn money and I am really good at my job or any job especially when I put my mind to it. Add to this the people at work need me more than I need my job and them as I said above they have sort of put al the eggs in one basket.

Though I am getting more and more fed up that work is needlessly stressing me out to the detriment of my home life even if it is only part of my week not all my week. I have to learn again to not allow work to screw up my home life something which too me a long time to do last time but always worth the effort.

One good thing is tonight the stress of work has got me writing this blog which in itself is not too bad if it is a little rough.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

In the End!

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In the end I am starting the question if my current job is worth its negative effect on my depression caused by a very negative environment at work caused by those who put the company first before both customers and employees.

And the answer is getting more and more towards no as in the end my own health both physical and mental is more important than any job as another job can always be found and I only one life.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

Where Did the Sense of Wonder Go?

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The saddest thing to see in this modern world of ours is the lack and any true sense of wonder from the people around me. It is as if the modern world has bred it or beaten it out of them never to return. I know that children always have a sense of wonder when young but it now quickly disappears as they get older.

What does not help this the situation of a modern world around us which both discourages and overloads the sense of wonder especially in a media which both discourages this sense and imagination. This all made worse by a society which is simply indifferent to the world around it and more than ever self-centred and geared to more selfish needs of the individual.

So we end up with a modern world which lacks one of the basic things needed to move forward a basic sense of wonder after all without this no one is ever going to explore or think about the world around them even just sit in happy amazement about the world itself.

This lack of sense of wonder results in a modern world which frankly is bland, mundane and if anything stagnant in so many ways even scientifically and socially. I find it very sad and feel sorry for those people who allowed the world around them rob them of their sense of wonder.

But there are still those of us out there who still have our sense of wonder and still know how to use it. I still find myself sitting watching the modern world with a sense of amazement and wonderment of what we have achieved especially the more positive aspects of it!

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

What to Do Next?

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After months of deciding what to do as a new job because I think I am coming to end of my time at my current job on a personal level. It has done what I needed to do so it it getting high time for a new job with new challenges and more suited to my newly awakened creative side.

It’s not that I am struggling with my current job or even bad at it, if anything I am very good at my current job. But, there is a big but, it really does not stretch me enough intellectually or creatively plus I am not surrounded by people who inspire me and stress me because of their certain lack of motivation which is effecting me in a very negative way.

But the real problem at the moment I really have no idea in which direction I want my career to go in now rather than I get a job with gives me more money to give me better life style than I am currently living. Plus a lack of confidence because of my age in so much I am older than most people looking for new job and even with the anti-age legislation people like myself are discriminated against regardless of the fact we have far more experience and practicable skills than people half our age.

I have a few ideas including going back into Information Technology either on the Programming or Support side even with over 10 years out of the industry I know I can still bring a lot to such an employer especially with the direct customer experience over the last 10 years.

Currently I am open to suggestions to which direction my career will take because I am lost at what to do currently!

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

Journal of a Lost Soul Part CDXII

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I am having day of rest after the previous week as my body has complained all week for no real reason other than it was the result of being stressed some two weeks ago. Always the way things go with myself and I suspect something I have to live with.

It still be a very quiet week for me creativity which still happens though now I wait until I get the inspiration to create again rather than get frustrated about it. I know I will get creative again but it will happen again usually suddenly without warning. Though currently the fact that I have got stressed at work my be having an effect as I am too tired to focus long enough to do something.

I still have a lot to do including the recreation of my small social network for friends and the such using WordPress. I have been slowly working on it which included finding an appropriate WordPress theme for a social network. I have found one which now I am in the process of tweaking it’s settings to recreate a similar look to the previous incarnation of the social network. All gives me more experience using WordPress and it’s set again so all good.

Currently I am trying to motivate myself to do some chores and cook always a hard thing to do on a day off after a hard week at work. So wish me luck.

Please Note: If you are interested in a more personal scrapbook of mine just follow the link to Patterns in the Static!.

Please Note: If you are interested in my home page just follow the link to Experiment No. 3.

Please Note: If you are interested in my small social network just follow the link to On the Other Side!.

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